Passing.......by....

Wow its late. 12:30 am.. This is the latest I have stayed up for a long time. Well, back in my "smoking" days this was early I guess.. Well the papers are back for the second time. I hope these brain surgeons get it right this time. I mean what do I expect tho, I only paid $250 for a divorce, saving myself thousands of dollars. Its been tough these last few days. Lots of mini and major fights. Sometimes the thought of divorce makes me sick to my core, then other days its like a feeling a freedom.
I understand that this is not going like Amanda and I thought it would. "Easy", is what we thought, ya know, like we had it all planned out and this is what we would do, this is what we would say, and all the other crap that we like to believe in "our" perfect plan.
None of that has really came into play..
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I just need to breath.....

Hello, let me introduce you to
The characters in the show
One says yes, one says no
Decide - which voice in your head you can keep alive

Even in madness, I know you still believe
Paint me your canvas so I become
What you could never be

I dare you to tell me to walk through the fire
wear my soul and call me a liar
I dare you to tell me to walk through the fire
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to

Hello, are you still chasing
The memories in shadows
Some stay young, some grow old
Come alive, there are thoughts unclear
You can never hide

Even in madness, I know you still believe
Paint me your canvas so I become
What you could never be

I dare you to tell me to walk through the fire
wear my soul and call me a liar
I dare you to tell me to walk through the fire
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to

Hello
Hello...
I dare you to tell me to walk through the fire
Brand my soul and call me a liar
I dare you to tell me to walk through the fire
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to
Hello...
Hello...
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to

Love that song... Any way.. I need bed and bed needs me.. Good Night and um, Good morning
These were MYtrueTHOUGHTS